Sigh, it is time to clean house, both spiritually and literally. How can I clean my house spiritually if my home is in a state of disorder? I’ve decided that I really can’t. So, despite my physical limitations I am slowly getting the house in order. It is hard to do and I will have to discard a lot of things that I’ve held onto because, well, they are useful or they have some sentimental value. I’ve gotten rid of a lot, but, there is still a lot more left to go through, again. Why I keep things is beyond me, down to nuts and bolts that I have no idea what they originally belonged to. Really? What is it about me that keeps these things?
In the same way I am finding that I’ve been keeping spiritual garbage too. I have a tendency to practice conversations in my mind to deal with things that bother me in the natural realm. These are things that I really should let go of and give them over to Jesus who takes those concerns away and gives peace. For His burden is light. He can take all of my burdens and deal with the things that consume me to inaction.
Listening to sermons that are uplifting while doing housework is helping. Some of the sermons happen to cause me to recognize some of the things that I’ve kept for myself when I should be turning it over to Jesus in my prayer life. I appreciate the technology that allows me to tune into the sermons of humble, Godly preachers or pastors. I’m sure that there are people who do not agree with some of the things that preachers say, but then, I’d say that no true man (or woman) of God could ever not offend someone through their ministry. I listen to a variety of preachers, all of whom I happen to like and though I may not always agree with a specific position I still recognize that they are called of God to minister to God’s people. God’s people are not always believers by the way. Since Yahweh is the God of all creation, then, all people are His creation and therefore His people. Unfortunately there are going to be some, and probably many, who reject Him and wilfully sin against Him who will ultimately know His punishment. I believe that it breaks His heart to have to administer that punishment. He gives us every opportunity to turn from our wicked ways. So, I see some of the wickedness in my own life and though it may seem mild to some, it is a stumbling block that keeps me from experiencing the intimate relationship with my Creator that I truly desire. Only God can truly see into my heart. The only way to obtain that closeness with God is to remove the sin, and the only way to do that is to repent and prayerfully hand it over to God to forgive me and remove it from my life.
As my spiritual life gets cleaned up it becomes easier to get my natural life in order. It takes time, lots of time actually. There is more ‘stuff’ than there is actually room for in the house. I’ll just have to steel myself and pack up useful things to donate and put memorabilia into a safe place that I can go into periodically to touch and reminisce.